From Panic to Clarity—The Emotional Rollercoaster of Losing Weight
Weight issues have been a life-long struggle for me. For my entire family, really, and I can't remember a gathering where the topic of conversation was not the latest lose-weight-fast diet someone was trying out.
I've read books, blog posts, and magazine articles about how eating healthy not only helps one lose weight, but is also the answer to avoiding so many other health issues that can arise with age. Heck, I've even subscribed to a few online programs, be it cleanses or nutritional meal plans, only to end up at the Whole Foods staring wide-eyed at the unrecognizable packaging while having a panic attack!
There is so much information out there on how to be healthy, balance your hormones, and cure with food, but it is not as easy as reading, learning, and diving right into it. There is a very important element missing in what is put out there, and that is an emotional one.
My brain understands all the information that passes by me, and my being knows it's for my own wellness, but there is always something holding me back—as if I’m standing on the edge of a cliff looking ahead to a paradise that's at my reach, yet my legs stay frozen in place.
I started reading WomanCode by Alisa Vitti of FLOLiving.com, learning to eat in a more nutritious way, convincing myself that it's about understanding the deeper effect of eating healthy food—different than what I've been used to—and slowly I realize it’s like learning a new language. It's not meant to be done over-night, but gradually, over time, in order for it to penetrate past all the erroneous lessons learned from childhood.
While reading the book I feel my mind actually change in acceptance. After over 30 years of struggling with weight and body issues, I now comprehend that it's a lifestyle and not a quick-fix to be able to live a 'perfect' life once the weight is gone.
With much love and gratitude,